Spartan!! Liver Disease be Damned!


Spartan!! 

Liver Disease be Damned


I have been procrastinating on writing this blog/post. 

We must take the bad with the good. I have been trying to just fill my life, mind, posts with all the positive notions that I can. We have had some crime/drama/death these past months, yet there's been great loveliness and glorious things too.

Right now I am feeling the spiral down. I pray it is just a lull, but test results have been validating my concerns. I need to get as involved in my medical journey, as I am my children, family, recovery and healthy activity. I have been trying to get everything "in order" before I start the medical process of tests, solutions and the horrifying dive, rather, the leap into the guinea pig hell, that comes from turning it over to Western Medicine.

I promised myself and my family that I would get going in May. Yes, I know it's August! I did go in for tests, procedures and prodding in May. Results were unfavorable and the solutions were non existent. I asked for a month extension to be more diligent in my Eastern Medicine regime. My liver specialist gave me two. Results were only worse when I went back in. I am much more powerless than I think.

Thing is, I am a walking talking miracle! Since my diagnosis, 4 years ago, I haven't had any consequences from my stage 4 cirrhosis/portal hypertension. I only got stronger and stronger, in spite of results, doctors, fears...until now..Well, until the past 5 months or so.

Sometimes, it just takes a few encouraging words.



Just a week or so ago, I had posted a before and after photo on my Spartan_shell Instagram. (Follow me!)  The "before" was really the in-between, because in my real before, I had always been a healthy weight. 
The Spartan organization, saw the post, gave me kudos and lavished me with some awesome recognition. They even asked my permission to post it all, then they posted it on their website/social media and literally called ME 'bad ass." ME? Just when I was feeling so ill.
I felt soooo Spartany, and proud.

Spartan encourages shell here!

Well, be gone pity party. Warrior Spirit kick in! Let's get one last race in (I have said that before, last one,  p'shaw!)

This weekend, I am heading out to Asheville with my 14year old Spartan Son. WE DO NOT QUIT.

Honestly, I am so tired, truly, the real deal...BUT I shall do this, I am determined. Then I am heading to CA in Sept. I shall grab as many hugs as I can.

I shall start the medical regime as soon as the young-uns are back in school, Aug 8th.
Right now it's my blood. my platelets have been going down about 20-30 points a month. We are lower than 80 at this time, not good at all..

I will be taking you on this journey with me, hospitals and all.


PS My niece, Judy, died last month. Last night, Judy's daughter gave me something Judy wrote before her journey.
Oh, to have such a legacy.

SEIZE THE DAY
SEIZE EVERY MOMENT
LOVE
FORGIVE
LOVE SOME MORE

Comments

  1. UnknownAugust 9, 2018 at 10:42 AM

    GOD BLESS YOU MY DEAR WARRIOR FRIEND...I so have enjoyed all your posts your fabulous zest for life and most of all your compassion for others....we never know what God has in store for us and I truly believe that he has a mission for all of us in this life time...yours was to show all of us how tough we can be when push comes to shove...from the bottom of my heart I say to you...YOU HAVE MADE A STAR IN HEAVEN FOR YOURSELF DEAR ONE.....Love, Robin

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  2. UnknownAugust 9, 2018 at 3:50 PM

    When are you arriving in CA. I am sure you have tons of folks to connect with when here, but if it is possible I would love to see you. I will be in TN in 11/10 - 11/15. Would love to see you then as well. Take care and soldier on....

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